I don’t mean anything

I’m lying
To you
And to me too

I’m not so angry
Just broken
Lungs black
My sweet charcoal
Saviour smoking

You cried
And I played the empty vessel
You’ll never fill me up
Unsinkable
Lovely wrestle

You know
I’m gone now
My shadows
Only visible
Where I was
Torn down
And I
Can’t even show it
It’s in a million pieces
But my heart don’t
Even know it

Don’t You See What Time It Is

I need to breath
Empty bed
So let me have my empty head
I can’t deal with both
Two realities
No longer intertwined
I no you tried
So I’m not punishing you
Infact
I know all the good you tried to do
And I know this is for better
Like I said
I agree
But I have to take time
My whole life
To just be me
I’ve spent too much time
Checking for poems
And checking texts
And hoping that you were kidding
That this wasn’t for the best
And I know we’ve both cried
So many tears
Could end droughts
But this time it doesn’t help
To talk it out
So yes my thoughts are poems
And so is this
And this isn’t last year
Or christmas
Thought I wish
It could be different
And that I wasn’t so
But I need some time to
Really let you go

Why I Wont Write

I refuse to spend
All this time in my head
I refuse to live
In this space we created
The walls of our home
Cracked
And crumbled around us
I was left to cry amongst the
Rubble
The remainders
Of a broken city
Of nights no longer lined with light
Of lungs no longer filled with laughter
Of a garden
Plucked of every rose
So now my lungs are filled with smoke
But at least my head is empty
And I don’t write because
My heart doesn’t live here
If you want to know my thoughts
Creep in while I sleep
Safely in my bed
In the heart of a town
That’s forgotten it’s morals
Creep into my room
While I sleep
Watch my dreams
Or read my new journal

How Strange

That sometimes I could cry

And sometimes I could sleep

Loneliness is eery

Desperation is stinky

Sticky

Desperate mud


SOMEONE LOVE ME
SOMEONE LISTEN
SOMEONE HOLD ME
SOMEONE PET ME
SOMEONE KISS ME
SOMEONE WHISPER
SOMEONE TELL ME
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT

There’s not a person in the world that could take this pain away

There’s not a person in this world